Lydia, UK
I live in a day that recurs . No matter how hard I try to make things better or to rationalise something comes along and pulls me back into the start of the day. It is an eternal mightmare. I feel I am not listened to and no one understands my thoughts or feelings. Nothing matters to other people .I try to defend my self and no one believes me. I know I cannot make things better as nothing can help. They want me to die but yet the day keeps me alive. I dont understand.
Leah, UK
I use recreational drugs and drink a lot which is probably what is causing it. Everytime I walk out of a room I think my friends are talking about me... sometimes I convince myself I can hear them saying things. I'm seeing a guy, and am constantly paranoid that he's with someone else. I can't stay home alone because I get scared, I'm scared of the dark, of someone breaking in. And when someone is being nice to me I always think there's a hidden meaning behind it. Always trying to read between the lines when there's only one line. When these thoughts come to me, I can hardly breathe, I get a bad headache, I can't concentrate, I can't think of anything else. Until i see the person or some thing reassures me I'l stay paranoid about. Even after i get reassured, my paranoia comes back within a day at the most. It's horrible, I can see it becoming a problem and ruining relationships it has already ruined a few. I'm only 18... but this is driving me insane. i feel like crying half the time then laughing at myself when it passes. I know the thought are irrational but I can't help them at all
Mirika, India
I'm 21 year old and a student... I've always been very studious. recently I saw a program on dark magic. The day I saw I did not have any problems. Some days before my exams were about to commence( around a couple of weeks after watching that program)I suddenly began to get suspicious thoughts( like some one would be doing such things on me).. I know its totally stupid to think like that and such things are just fictional. But still I couldnt overcome such thoughts and I feel like its eating away my mind.. I couldnt even concentrate on anything.. I just hope I would soon overcome these feelings... Its horrible...
Ella, Canada
I feel there is a hidden camera in the house and is watching my every move. Whenever I go to the bathroom I never turn on the light for fear of being seen. At work when I see a group of people talking in the lunch room, I think they are talking about me. I keep moving things around in the house because if I don't move them, me or my family will be harm. At night before I go to sleep I make sure all the opening in my bedroom is sealed and the door is locked and bolded, for fear someone will let in the sleeping gas and then come in to rape me. I fear there are people out there that wants to harm me and I don't know what to do. It seems to get worse as I get older.
Anna, UK
A lot of what i've read here rings true with me, to the point i'm suspicious if this site has been set up - this has been my way of thinking for the last 6 months - that i'm part of some kind of Truman Show style psychological experiment. I've always been fairly self aware and known my way of thinking was far from 'normal'. I took a lot of drugs for a year and had a paranoid episode after a weekend of too many. Now my mind feels permanently altered, i'm in constant conflict between accepting i'm paranoid and thinking i've just come to notice whats been going on all along.