I live in a day that recurs . No matter how hard I try to make things better or to rationalise something comes along and pulls me back into the start of the day. It is an eternal mightmare. I feel I am not listened to and no one understands my thoughts or feelings. Nothing matters to other people .I try to defend my self and no one believes me. I know I cannot make things better as nothing can help. They want me to die but yet the day keeps me alive. I dont understand.