Jenna, USA
Voices command me to do things. They say if I don't, I'll die. Even if I don't want to do those ideas. I take my plates of food with me everywhere I go when I eat because I'm afraid that someone's touched it, or bugs have crawled into the food upon my turning my back. I cannot be out in a large crowd anymore without believing that someone is watching me, following me. Even when I'm walking my little sister to the bus stop, I feel as if a crazy axe murderer will come out of the bushes, or the neighbors will turn on me. Walking on the streets, I have to walk with a hoodie on, & the hood up. It gives me a sense of Security and makes me feel as if I'm safe. When I go to take a shower, I believe that a burgler has snuck into my home and killed my family, and will come back for me. I can't even get out of bed without being afraid that I'll be swept underneath it. I feel as if everyone's waching me when the bus pulls up to my stop. I don't look up because I'm afraid of meeting eyes with anyone. I realize I must sound insane, but reading other stories helps me realize that I'm not alone. Thanks for that.
George, UK
I've always had some problems with trust, ever since I moved to London, leaving my dad. I still talk to him though. The trouble started at school. A stupid rumour was spread around about me, and of course I got upset. But the more I tried to reason with people, the more I felt like people hated me.
David, UK
This is to Anna in the uk, who has written an account. I have the same thing, it started about 2 years ago after 2 night of drinks and drugs i was in a pub and tought a friend was after hurting me and he was going around the pub telling everyone to get me and it really messed with my head. I now have moved and its just as bad I feel that im living the Truman Show, everyone is setting me up for everyone to see, people are watching me, camaras in my house. 2 of my house have started walking late at night and I feel the go out to meet with the police and people to discuss what i have been doing. I wont go out to people house for food as i think they are putting stuff in it and they are trying to kill me off. I cant trust anyone!. I know its from that one night but its made me see thing that aint there (well in my head they are there) Well thanks for reading and thanks for this website, I now know im not the only one with this horrible pain hope we all pull through it.
Peter, UK
Like several people here, I've always been afraid of the dark (on & off). My imagination always gets the better of me and I imagine scary things which would be well suited to a horror film or an episode of the X Files. It seems that as I've got older the problem has got worse. At the moment it's worse than it's ever been. During the day I feel fine. Then as soon as it starts to get dark I feel spooked. I'm afraid of every noise, as I get tired I start seeing things in my peripheral vision & my imagination works overtime. I get so worked up that I cannot sleep. I'm scared to even go to bed because if I let my guard down, something may happen. I can't stand being left alone at night. To start with I really believed my house was haunted but the more intense and delusional my thoughts became, the more I started to consider my state of mind. There was a time I felt safe in other houses or hotels but now I think I'd get spooked anywhere. I live in an old house which doesn't help but once lived in a brand new house and was still afraid at night. It's got to the point where I think I'm going to have to see my GP.
Jim, UK
i go to bed at night whilst laying there waiting for the meds to kick in so i can go to sleep i see a shadow standing near the door just staring with those bright yellow eyes to scared to get up and check out i lay under my covers till i sleep i wake in the morning worrying about the day ahead whos watching me is anything gonna happen to me im finding im going out less and less now as when i go places like shops someone is standing on every street corner watching me as i get close to them i see there eyes just staring the blink funny then they turn round when i get to the turning there gone then i look furthur ahead and there they are again someone different standing there whatching me i feel theyve inplanted something in my head so they can see through my eyes the day to day running of human beings and that they are just watching me do this