I have had constant paranoid fears since I was a child. The earliest I can remember would be since I was about 7 or 8, and I hope that Jack, USA reads this because I am in every way the same as he is. I used to lie in bed at night, frightened that someone would come in, kill my family and then stab me repeatedly in the back. It is always my back for some reason, and I have a problem with people touching my back even now, which I think is related to my fear.
I have always, always been paranoid about people hiding behind doors that are left slightly open. The initial fear is that someone is there, who intends to harm me, but my second thought is always that they have a knife.
My main fear is of someone coming into my house. When I wake up in the morning, I tip toe around each room cautiously checking to see if someone is there, and only relax and once I am certain they are not. The next problem I face, every day, is showering. I always think every sound I hear when I’m in the shower is someone in my house. It takes me about five minutes to pluck up the courage to actually leave my bathroom once I shower, and sometimes I have to check all the rooms again to be certain.
I have always had fears I was being watched or followed, even since I was a little child. And I now fear that I am going to be shot from a passing car when I’m walking down the street. I am completely aware my fears are irrational, but I can’t shake them. I also have really bad nightmares quite often, usually involving people harming me, and I suffer quite badly from sleep paralysis. It’s really getting me down. But it’s reassuring to know that I’m not the only one out there who feels this way.
