I spend a great deal of my time “lost” in my thoughts. I have these thoughts that are like chain reaction events…”if I go to the store I may get in an accident, kid may run out in front of me, my truck may catch fire….” I have alost gotten into accidents becuase my thoughts turn into images and I react to them ..like by jerking the wheel so I dont hit the kid that I am worried about running out in front of me! I know its all in my head. I also never feel alone. I feel like someone is watching me. I hate being alone. I hate the dark. Every noise I hear at night keeps me awake. I have to be covered from head to toe to keep me safe at night (not like my blanket is really going to keep me safe?) – I am sick of these thoughts…yet I cant stop them…
