I have had bipolar disorder for a number of years now and in past year the paranoid thoughts have driven me insane( even more so ).I think that when someones phone rings its about me, if I can’t hear the conversation then its about me. That people don’t really want me around they are just putting up with me. I feel that people think derogitory things about the way I look or the things I say, even strangers in the street. I feel that people are laughing at me for things I say or do. Suicidal thoughts are frequent, no matter how kind people are.