I always think people are making fun of me. Sometimes, when I’m not paying attention to what people around me are saying, I think I overhear them saying mean things about me and then when I ask them about it they explain to me what they really said and it is COMPLETELY different from what I thought I heard. I think some of my friends from school aren’t even really my friends and they only invite me places so that they can make fun of me behind my back. These thoughts are constant and freak me the fuck out. I don’t trust anybody at all and I have a very low self-confidence level. When I get high, it is absouletly and completely horrible. I hate it with a passion and feel distant from everyone else around me at all times.